i'd rather have the thought of you..

i haven't been on here for awhile now. Melissa reminded me about Xanga and I read over some of my entires and i must say xanga is dear to my heart. how long have we all been writing on this. words of sadness, happiness, good times and bads, frustrations, memories... and i can say its all worth it to go back and read through where you were at that moment in your life and all the things that have past.

this summer has been good. i'm just doing some online classes that I thought would be easy, but they aren't at all (I don't know what I was thinking!), and I did some volunteering at Rivercrest, and have been in a whirlwind of Weddings. The Gearys wedding was lovely, and now Anna gets married in like 9 days and my brother gets married in about 4 weeks. Life is changing and moving and I'm slowing accepting it. Or atleast trying. It's weird to say I have gotten two years of college done.

It's weird to jump from Biola to here. It's like two different worlds. I have the long months and then my two months here. I'm not going back to Biola next fall but heading to London to study abroad for a semester. How crazy to think I won't be back in California. My friends there are getting an apartment and I'm sad about not being able to move in with them when they first go. I'm hoping to live there when I get back. I'm really looking forward to London but don't know anyone really well that I am going with. A group of us met at the meeting and decided that the four of us would travel 3 weeks together around Europe before school starts. I'm anxious.

I have about a month left but the time is moving fast. I'm just trying to figure out everything and I feel as though I can't do it.

love take control. 

morgan.

blessed assurance, jesus is mine.

it seems though we live these sepreate lives, but for instances when we are together all the world is right and back to how it was when all we worried about was what to wear around rivercrest and how we werent going to try and get in trouble with my mom while we all did crazy things in the basement. i miss it. but life changes and there is no regreting or wishing things were back to where they were but we live still with our beautiful friendship- we have each other still- though worlds apart- we have our lives forever together and no one and nothing can change that.

things in california are good. classes are fine. theology is awesome. i'm anchoring for the eaglevision's sports show. i just started writing for the newspaper. i'm having fun. friends are good. brent's wonderful. i'm stressed with what the future brings. but am in this state of trusting God fully.

I feel as though I won't ever truly know how amazing God's grace is... but I have a complete different view of it after reading His words. I am in awe.

i love you, i do.

morgan

if i lay here.. if i just lay here.. would you lie with me and just forget the world.

so i have quite a need to update my xanga. i'll check this sometimes but dont necessarily feel like i have too much to say.

the refrences in my last xanga about the shoes and 4 in the morning were about a boy who i started to date unofficially for a month or so... well now we are official. he is from california and is a senior at biola.

alright so let me start at how we met.. he and i both have mutual friends and we both were at starbucks at the same time and he was helping my friend out with homework. well he was super fun and everything so we started to talk more and i'm not going to lie everytime i saw him i was hoping we could get a chance to talk or whatever. well anyways... we started hanging out super late talking until like 4am and what not. it began to get more serious and everything.. although his reserves on us being a couple was the fact i'm not a hardcore calvanist. for the record.. i lean more calvanist but have not decided! hahah- thats for anna.

anyways i'm dating him now and like i never have  met a guy so focused on Christ.. and just like wow. i know i was in a relationship before where God wasn't at the top of the list and everything and God really broke my heart at the end of that relationship but He has healed me adn i feel back on track. i'm just like in awe of what God does.

i'm learning so much now about everything and feel like somehow i'm figuring it all out. but i couldnt do it with out everyone. I love you all so so much.

so yeah other than dating someone and learing so much... i'm just stressed about finals and what not, but whos not. i can't wait to celebrate Christmas!!! yah! i loooove christmas. Mostly because Jesus was born! and also.. let's be honest... the feel in the air and songs and lights.

love = CHRISTMAS

morgan

now and forever, i will always be with you.

if i dont return your calls... right away or ever until you call me back.... or if i don't call you as much as i should... or my contact is slim... i need you to know, i think of you often. more than you know. i wonder what you're doing and how everything is going. when your name comes to mind i normally write it on my hand so i'll remember to call you, but somehow i never get around to it until later.. i know if i call i'll want to talk forever and hear all about your life... so i wait for the moments i have an hour or so, but it seems as those time slots never open. i think of you and i pray for you and miss you much. i cherish so much of the times we've had together.

exploring omaha and other cities, s. works!, driving in the car with the top down, concerts, watching your band, you begging me to drive my car and me finally giving in, going to fazolis and then driving around listening to music in your car, going to parks and talking forever, barnes and noble, panera, donut stop (i'm seeing a lot of food places on this list), going to the movies or paradise bakery, shopping forever, our gazebo, chilis, downtown, late nights, coffee, just little things.. i'm not listing a lot but if you and me ever did any of these than you're who i am talking about.

i miss you and love you.  

I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart. Phil 1:3-7a

morgan